The inevitable happened. Shit! Shit and more shit! I started feeling a little dizzy yesterday afternoon and suddenly got really sleepy despite the fact I hadn’t been doing much of anything. Towards the evening, it got steadily worse and I couldn’t deny it any longer - I’m having a mild attack of labrythinitis - again.

I started feeling really depressed about it last night and was praying it was a temporary thing but when I woke up this morning I felt mildy sick and every time I turned over - I got slightly dizzy.

I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to handle it but I forced myself to go to work because I’m damned if I’m going to let this thing control me again. I made it there okay and just concentrated on my work despite the fact I felt as if I was sinking through my seat. It is a really wierd thing to experience but at least the room wasn’t spinning. I’ve been told by others who have had this that it gets weaker after every attack so I’m kinda holding on to that at the moment. I have four days until I’m off for 2 weeks and I don’t even mind being sick those entire two weeks if it just goes away.

I can’t go through this again - I just can’t!

Ugh! I’ve been fighting it off for a couple of weeks but it looks like I’ve run out of luck and hit rock bottom. I have a cold. I do not like colds and those of you who have read my labrythinitis story will know why. I freak out if I get as much as a runny nose and right now my back hurts like a SOB. My eyes are nipping like mad and streaming so much I can’t tell if it is the cold doing it or the last bout of pollen biting me on the ass.

And did I mention it is frigging freezing? When I woke up (very reluctantly) this morning I was shivering as soon as I left the bed. I looked outside and I could see a thin layer of frost on my neighbour’s garden shed so I’d say winter is well and truly on its way. Now, I actually like winter since I was born in December and am a winter baby. I just hate changeable weather and that’s probably why I have this damn cold. It’s freezing cold in the mornings and once the sun is up - too hot again so you have to pull off the layers and then add them all back on again at night.

I’ve only been in work four days this week because of the bank holiday and I only stayed to five once. Ah, well, that’s what flexi is for and to hell with the filing - it’s not going anywhere - unfortunately. It’s not like my flexi is in deficit anyway since I have almost enough for a day off but I’m not going to bother since I finish up next Friday for two blissful weeks! Yay!

I know what you are thinking! She’s gone and changed the layout again. I appreciate all the kind words but I just hated the last one so much and just couldn’t live with it any longer. I’ve also given up on the celebrity pics and gone back to using Jessica Galbreth artwork. The image is called Lunas Secrets and is from Jessica’s new sketch gallery. I mean it portrays two of my favourite things: the moon and the colour blue - so how could I resist?

I love Jessica’s stuff so much! She has quite a few new additions to her site, esp the Night Magick prints but I feel they are a bit too dark for here. I prefer light coloured layouts mainly.

I’m also not going to apologise for having pagan leanings - this is my site and I’ll believe in whatever I want. I do not believe in God but I respect those who do, so I expect the same tolerance in return. Deal with it!

Damn it! I’ve been virtually spam free for months since upgrading to WP1.5 and I thought the problem was solved with the new white list thing. Over the past week or so, one of my fansites has been getting hit by poker spam again and I thought it was because I’d failed to upgrade to the latest version - so I upgraded straight away. Unfortunately, it hasn’t solved the problem and I got hit again so obviously the damn spambots have worked out how to get round WP’s new defences.

So, I’ve just installed Spam Karma 2.0 here and on the fansite blog in the hopes of nuking the spammers. In the meantime, I’m going to go on moderating comments and closing them down periodically like I’ve been doing.

Those of you who have already commented on my blog and had comments approved should not be affected by moderation queues *provided* you use the same e-mail address so WP will recognise you.

The damn spammers should be fined and never allowed near a computer again. How about using your talents for something productive instead of frustrating the hell out of ordinary people who just want to have fun on the web? FCOL, life is frustrating enough!!

Yay! My camera finally arrived yesterday and of course I had to charge the battery before I could play with it. It’s so small it fits into the palm of my hand! It’s also really wierd taking photos without looking through anything but so much better I think. I’ve only been messing around with it in my bedroom for now because I’ve been too damn tired to do anything else. It has been a really stressful week at work and there just seems to be no end to it. I’m so looking forward to my holidays at the end of the month, then I can start my photo project.

All I seem to do these days is work, work, work and I’m not really sleeping that great either because of all the stress. There are big changes going on this weekend and the Bank Holiday on Monday isn’t going to be much of a holiday because of all the chaos with double post the day after.

Sometimes I just feel like crying….

Gripe #1: Not only did I have to endure three days of hell in the new work area mentioned in a previous post, but when they move me back to my own section - I get left alone! We are having a severe staff crisis at the moment and will have for the forseeable future until all the new starts are up-do-date. The usual girl I work with was nabbed to be part of the induction process but I figured that was okay because we would be joined by a newly promoted team member. How stupid of me!

In a colossally dumb move, my line manager nabbed the new member of staff, gave her a task that was guaranteed to take hours and left me on my own. I was stunned speechless! The work we do is far too much for one person and by three in the afternoon, I knew we were in trouble but I wasn’t changing my plans to leave early. I just shoved all the undone work into a cupboard and shut the door.

If that wasn’t a prime example of a serious misjudgement in management, I don’t know what it was!

Gripe #2: My shiny, new camera got delivered on the one day of the week that no one was in and was taken back to the parcel depot. I have been trying my damnedest since last Thurs to get the thing delivered. Jeez, you’d think I was trying to smuggle in firearms or something. I just want my camera delivered so I can play with it before the returns deadline is up! What if I hate it?

Gripe #3: I ordered a new cabinet and the bloody thing was cracked on arrival. Not only that all the protective packaging inside was all broken up and it really looked to me as if it had been returned by someone else. It was supposed to be pine too but looked as if it was ordinary wood painted in a pine colour. I promptly got on the phone and asked them to take it away but they tried to persuade me to take it at a reduced cost. I told them to forget it and now they can’t guarantee when it will be uplifted - knowing my luck it will be the one day when there is no one in! (see Gripe #2)

Gripe #4: I have PMS and when I become the next world leader, I’m giving women that time off. So that pretty much guarantees a one week working month for me!

Gripe #5: Men should be made to have it too and then we’d be guaranteed VAT-free supplies. In fact, they should be bloody free! (no pun intended).