It’s finally starting to cool down, thank goodness! I haven’t really been sleeping properly with all that’s been going on the past couple of weeks but the muggy nights haven’t been helping there either.

I’ve been busy working on my family tree website again, I deleted the last site because I hated the domain name and was tired of it all. So, now I’ve registered a new domain and am creating it again as a tribute to Grandma because she loved hearing about everything. I feel sad that she won’t be there to share it anymore.

I’ve also bought my first scrapbook set. I’ve been fighting the urge to scrapbook because I need another hobby like I need a hole in the head but photos look so lovely when they are displayed in that way. Grandma has tonnes of photos and I thought it would be nice to show them off. Oh, and it’s my parents Ruby Wedding next year so I’ve ordered a cross stitch sampler to do for them - it’s sort of a family tradition but I haven’t cross stitched in ages. Goodness knows when I’m going to get the time though… Ah, well, never mind, it will keep me out of mischief.

I’ve been a bit behind with everything internet based for the past few days so I’d just like to thank everyone who took the time to pass on their condolences. Things are going to be difficult for a very long time because Grandma was a huge part of my life and I feel like I’ve lost my best friend. I need to start thinking about the good times now because I don’t want to cry every time I think about her.

Grandma passed away this afternoon. I just can’t believe she is really gone. I feel like someone ripped out my heart.

This has to be one of the longest weekends I’ve ever experienced. My grandma is in intensive care and is seriously ill. We’ve been told it could go either way. We’re keeping in close contact with the hospital but it is mainly just a waiting game. I’m just trying to keep myself occupied as best as I can but my concentration is shot to hell. I’m really tired because I didn’t get much sleep last night because of worrying about her and it is so damn hot here just now. I feel sorry for my mum and dad because they are due to fly out on holiday on Friday and if they cancel, they lose every penny. There’s just no way mum will leave my grandma though.

Good or bad, I finally joined Blog Explosion, more out of curiosity than anything else. I’m not sure if it will mean more visitors or if I even have anything interesting to offer but if it doesn’t work out, I can always cancel. Right now, the urge for more visitors is warring with the urge to go hide somewhere. I spent some time looking at other blogs on BE last night, some were interesting and some were downright scary. You have no idea how I have to work up the nerve to comment on a blog for the first time. Yes, I should have named this site “wallflower” or something because I’m always the girl who hugs the walls at parties (that’s if you even get me there in the first place).

I’m so freaking tired, it’s unbelievable! The work just keeps pouring in and since we are so short-staffed, it just keep piling up and you can see a lot of people are starting to get really stressed out. We are the only office in Scotland doing what we do and we used to have a three day turn around in processing papers, as of today we are currently three weeks behind. We have recruited a load of new staff but it is going to take them time to get up to speed. We have a temp helping us out but he never bloody listens to a word you say or he nods his head in understanding and then still does it wrong. I had to look over a load of files he’d done on Monday and put them all back in order again and correct all the typos. It really frustrates the hell out of me when we get temps in who are more or less useless. You spend so much time showing them what to do repeatedly or doing the work again at the back of them, you’d be better off doing it yourself in the first place. I could feel myself getting more and more frustrated today and I ended up having to walk away a few times before I said something I’d probably regret.

Adding to the misery of my work day, the place felt like an oven. We’re really having strange weather just now. We had thunderstorms most of Sunday and then it was overcast Monday but really muggy. Today, it was dull then the sun came out in the afternoon and it was unbearably hot in the office. By about four, there was more thunder and then pouring rain. I got totally drenched when a car passed me on the street and aimed for the only puddle in sight, releasing a tidal wave of water all over me.

The only good thing about today was I finally decided to get a new mobile. My old faithful Nokia 3410 is really pretty much an antique these days and although I swore blind that I didn’t care what it looked like, my head has been turned by the fancy new Nokia 6230I which does everything but make tea! I love new toys!

Gotta go, my eyes are watering so badly from pollen, I can hardly read the screen. Don’cha just love Summer?